I am so grateful and happy to have heard some great and loving words whispered by someone special before the month of August ended…
“Ang saya ko sa’yo eh. 🙂 “
(I am happy with you.)
And I couldn’t stop smiling because it is mutual. Felt like I am on cloud nine. ❤
I am always thanking God for this amazing person.
The most wonderful things really come when you least expect it.
‘‘You should love a person not because the way they seem in your dreams, but for the way they really are. Because if you know someone’s weaknesses, insecurities, the traits they hate about themselves and the experiences that haunt them, and you choose to love them nonetheless, then you’re loving them most truly: as a real person.”
—Grabbed from Thought Catalog
I may not be the woman he needs, nor the woman who passed his standards, but I could only stay hopeful and grow to be a woman worth loving. For all the days that God made and I am with this person, I always feel so loved, and that is more than something. I remember he told me a warning that night on our ?th date: that he might not be the man that I need nor the man that I am idealizing. I got to admit that during that night, I was worried that he may not be all that I want and need, but fast forward to now, I don’t really mind about that anymore.
Because I have learned to love him for all that he is, for all that he has been, and for all the he’s yet to be…
Today, I am reminded not to hurt someone physically just to defend myself, like I usually do when I get mad. Today, I learned to be 100x more mindful of the things that come out of my mouth, and hopefully will continue to do so until the rest of the days in my life. Because when you hurt the ones you love, you only hurt yourself twice as much.
Tonight, I was not uncomfortable with silence. Not because I am too tired, nor was I so worried and I can’t forget about what I did. Although I was a bit itching to break the silence, I tried to be calm and just go with it. I am alright with these moments, because it just draws me closer to that special person I am with without having to say anything. I felt content. It felt like talking without words because you are listening and understanding with the heart.
Today, I realized that if you really love someone, show it. NEVER hesitate to show it. (Note to self, everyday.)
Tonight, all I needed is a hug. I never liked hugs before, and this moment is when I found out that just one hug makes me forget all the bad days, makes me stronger, makes me happy again, makes me feel that I am loved despite my shortcomings.
Last week, Saturday. That’s when I had my first kiss. A real one.
That was when I became sure and unsure of what is ahead of us. I did not resist, nor did I regret it after. And it was already there. Perhaps it just had to happen. The feeling is comparable to seeing fireworks but the ground you are on is shaking. It is wonderful yet kind of dangerous. I found out that something good can literally take your breath away. And make you feel high.
He let me lean on his shoulder on the way home, then I fell asleep.
Yesterday is one of the greatest days in my life. 🙂
Never in my 20 years of existence had a guy walk me all the way home. They either feel I live too far, or they just don’t have the effort. He didn’t mind doing so even if he lives 15+ kilometres away.
A lot of firsts have been happening! xx
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