とまれ!

I was feeling dizzy and sleepy this day because I only had 3 hours of sleeeeep.
And my first class starts on 7am. Annnnd I travel 2 hours from home to UST.

Anyway, I stopped by a friend’s page, and I read this:

i love him and i don’t know how to stop.

i need him and i don’t know if i could stop.

i miss him and i don’t know when to stop.

he loved me, and i don’t know why…

… HE STOPPED.

The remark has sorta stabbed me, because only yesterday [when i was sad and i was lonely HAHA!] he was moving away from me, and I felt the same thing. Like, gravity tearing us apart.  I don’t know if what I felt before and what I am feeling now is love. Is it love or is it something else? Yeah, give me time to contemplate about that. But then, I have learned a HELL LOT of definitions of love, and its essence. My opinion about this remark…

I don’t really agree. If you love someone, you know your limits because LOVE is different from FALLING-IN-LOVE. Love is conciously done, and Falling-In-Love is unconciously made; you do not force yourself to liking that particular person.  But we have the choice to stop or not to stop, right? If we overthink “I can’t stop loving you”, then it affects everything else. The mind controls everything, I guess so. Another question I don’t really get:

Everyone says that you follow your heart. But then, the mind also controls the heart, right? Talk about systems.😄

and i am being crazy again.

Then I just remembered what Sir Odchimar said. Always be true to your heart.

So then, if we think we can stop and that’s what the heart tells us and that’s what we want, then go for it. :]

But it hurts, right?!! Just when your infatuation to him grows, his just started to wane. :[

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