どうしよう？！

I haven’t told you that I told my friends that I think I already gave up on Kanata Hongo.

I don’t understand it, I’ve been into him for almost 4 years (srsly) and then I’d just give up? わからない！！
Then they asked me why, I just said “Si Yuto kase.” (It’s because of Yuto.)

Suddenly I felt like I like him and for the past few weeks I swear I was already fangirling and whatever!! Then just this day, when I woke up, it’s like everything was gone.

I looked at my cellphone and I hated the wallpaper!! (Like it was someone in the J-world that I soo hate) and I did not have fun looking at the new scans. (Gomen, emzi! Gomen!). Lord please help me on these matters.

I think I was just thinking too much on Solid Geometry and Physics 102. I’m tired and sleepy.

And I kept on wondering why do I have to divert what I was feeling from HK to NY. Should I continue to HK or just go to a new road in NY? HAHAHAHA. (inside joke)

Or is it just that someone whom I felt would be my forever is just a connection to the other person who is (maybe) my real forever?

I DON’T KNOW.

i want to wake up from the reality but the clock just won’t ring.